Focus on the Future!!!

At time things seem pretty F@cked up

and things don't seem to make sense,other time things are answered in time. one of the new things I have been doing is trying to wait to react at least 48 hours. work on the problem with thought and time not just jump at it and fail because when you react with a reaction and not your mind and a plan things seem to just blister into a bigger cluster of sh@t and not really turn out at all.

Example: I tried to solve all of my marriage problems at one time when in reality it was not something I could control at all it was not in my control and after time things fell into place not the way I thought but in a way I never really anticipated I lost a marriage and gained a new perspective on life it was not about me at all and a 10 year old was the one that made that very very clear to me she was the one who had the least control the most to loose and she was the one who had the answer it was love love for me love for he mother and love for her family and she was the one who said it will be OK I love you and god loves you it will all work out .

how in the would did she Know things i did not even know and somehow i knew she was right and she was she taught me that the marriage I thought was something that would never die because she was made from it and she would live longer than it would ever last so all of the good of my marriage was wrapped up ion a 90 pound bundle named Carrissa so in some ways it would live forever not as i had planned but in a way and in a person at times when i was married I took for granted I even said at one time Marriage is forever and kids are temporary I know now marriage is temporary but the kids will out live you so love them like you love yourself because when your gone they are all that remains of what you were and who you were so make it your priority and make it the best the very best you can.